Wednesday, September 13, 2006
I havent slept fer 2 days...i'm veri tired now.. I'm sure i can fall asleep veri soon if i lie on my bed nw.. But~my heart's feeling veri pain..i'm afraid i might hav a nightmare.. I kept tinking abt e balloon..it could hav b mine..bt..nt animore..n..sobbz..it's puimeow's surprise fer mi onmy birthday..sobzz..~Dere's no way i can stopp tinking abt him fer a moment.. No 1 knows hw i'm feeling nw..cos no 1 knows abt our quarrel..
i feel as if i'm being tear apart..i feel so lonely.. No 1s dere fer mi animore..
i duno if i'm doing e rite ting nw bt if i had choose to listen to my heart..all these wouldnt hav happened..
It's going to rain soon..jus as well~i can hav a gd slp nw..
hu knows i may wake up feeling betta n b strong again...~ "hav ya ever tot if ya're realli tt perfect?" This sentence kept flashing in my mind.. I'm stress..~
4:00 PM
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
i'm depressed.lonely n feelinh super sucky..
i wonder hw m i going to pass this long nite..
11:49 AM
Sunday, September 10, 2006
i woke up damn earli tis morning..11.30am.. It is consider earli to mi at least..haix..
In e aftnoon my family n i went to "beauty world"? Ahaha~my mom used to brought mi there during every wkend when i was young..yeah.. Dere used to b more crowded in e past..n it's like..so deserted.. Kinda sad to know tt it's so..
Aniway..i tk in a deep breath when e auto-door of e shopping centre opens..jus like wad i used to do everytime.. I wanna try n c if e familiar smell is still dere.. n surprisingly it is! Tt moment i felt as i was back to e past..
My dad n i went to grab a bite at e highest level..wah biang e food sucks..!?! Hw cum eh..it wasnt lydat in e past..no wonder nobody's going dere animore..
i miss puimeow alot~he called lotsa times too..
I'm nw looking forward to going out with him tis Sat..n buying ring on Fri.. Lotsa imagined scene going thru my mind nw....
Hmm..tml'll b a busy dae fer mi..gotta settle my bill fer my dad..as well as mine.. Nda go to e bank..so sianz..confirm long queue de mah..wah.e tot of it makes mi feel like backing out..haha..cannot la~
Babymeowmeow:"Babypuimeow~~i'm miss ya..i nt onli miss ya..i had a strong urge to hug ya nw.. So..hug hug ya tight!!"
N i've already saved lotsa $1 coins fer ya~
2:26 AM
Saturday, September 09, 2006
haha..earli morning i went to west mall with my dad..we're headin to M1 shop to buy my fone.. yeah..
My elsest bro contributed $100..May a $1oo n my dad $100 too.. e fone cost mi $298..hais..so ex..
Aniway..i had wanted to get a black colour model..bt too bad dae're out of stock..onli e pink n dark blue ones r left.. I had no choice..i tot i can visit other M1 shops bt my dad chose e pink 1 fer mi.. I gladly accept cos it's frm my dad.. I wouldnt reject him..
Aft tt i went to jiajun's hse..alrite dun ask mi y bt i was veri keen..
i still appear to be cold to him today.. He ask mi nt to..n up to his meow meow game's trick again..haha..cannot tahan him..
He's e 1st guy hu would "role play" with mi..it's kinda childish bt it's fun.. I oftn play tis game with my toys when i was young..haha..yeah..
i had my dinner(@ e mos burger..nt again?!) at sembawang..haha..den we go on to jurong point to choose our ring..bt unfortunately..e rings available dere're too ugly..e design was veri plain..wah biang..i'll nv spend or make baby spend money on tt kinda plain ring.. Waste of money wor..
i went hm myself..tk 172.. e journey was veri long..bt i was veri awake..
when baby called mi jus nw..he say he wanna give mi a surprise.. n naturally i asked him wad isit.. Well..i ddnt expect him to reali tel mi abt it..he say he wanna buy e ring..serious..
Ahaha..~babypuimeow!! babymeowmeow huggies!
12:34 PM
Friday, September 08, 2006
hais..i finally made up my mind..i realli wanna break up since he doesnt care.. I told him so..n he sounded sad..
Know when innitiated it..i feel my heart breaking..realli sucks~e feeling..
TT moment..i told mysef nt to get involve in another relationship so young.. i wanted to stay firm..so i kept hurrying him to hang up..so tt i wouldnt be waver by his words..
Bt..b4 i can hang up his cal..he said lotsa touching words which he has nv did..n i nv knew his love fer mi's tis deep..hais..
I was touched..veri touched.. Bt i kept reminding i've to be firm in order to end my sufferings..
But whenever he play e 'meow meow' game with mi..i'll become soft le..
He'll go"meow..meow..Puimeow cold cold~~hide behind e basket.."
1:01 AM
Thursday, September 07, 2006
8:59 AM
I woke up at 11 plus tis morning despite slping late ytd nite..
I purposely slept late cos i noe jiajun's nt asleep yet..he's burning mid-night oil again.. So i decided to complete my uncompleted work n accompany him..~
It's nw 12.04am~~baby did call jus nw b4 he went fer his gathering with his frens..
He told mi he wasnt feeing hungry..jus wanna catch up with his frens..i can understand ahh..
Bt i jus..if he can spend more time with his frens..den y keep rushing mi to hang up saying he has works to do..
R dere realli so little time to spare?
Hais..i trie calling him nw..bt dere's no respond..Perhaps he didnt bring his fone..
Y~~? hais..I've so much doubt seriously.. Spending little time with mi~complaining of tireness..(ya were nt so tired when with ya frens) always relunctant to buy our ring..n jus look at his friendster's status.. It was nt so important bt it is nw..y? Cos when all these pts r added up..i feel tt he dun wish to aknowledge our relationship..cos he feels tt we're nt stable..rite?
so y should i put tis person 1st in priority if we arent stable??
I'm tired le la~~seriously i dun feel happi animore.. I might as well live alone..i may b even more well off..
12:29 AM
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
tis morning i went to e library very earli..with weisi, liling n jaime..
Bt aniway..let's nt tok abt tt boring part.. Weisi gave mi a letter n a drawing..
Hmm..he drew my dream fone fer mi..n frame it up in a brown border photo frame...
I duno where shall i hang or keep it..ermm..
e story actualli starts here..alrite.. I jus gt to knew abt wad "DOLL" has wrote in her blog..
Nvm hw i felt..Jacq, jaime, liling, yunyuan n mi questioned her since wrote tt she's willing to explain wad she wrote to us on e last line of her blog..
She was like..uttering nonsense towards e end of our conversation.. Den i was like.."wah biang wad e..~"
Anyway..we two jus couldnt communicate..she often gets e wrong idea of wad i'm saying.. Forget it..it's nt as if i freaking care??!!
Next!!
Not to mentioned abt "scolding" ayumi.. I realli had a gd time scolding jus nw...i've vented out all e angers accumulated in mi..so shu fu~~thx to ayumi!( i wld like to express my deepest gratitude to ya~:help ya orh fer free!!) Ahaha...~yeah..it's lame.. Bt feel gd sayin it out..
It's still long to saturday..haix.. I onli gets to c babypuimeow once a week..
So...i hope to realli spend quality time with him..bt of cos..e quantity is also important!
10:35 AM